Before Baby: Software design

It’s time to seriously get back into job searching. I was dabbling in looking for additional career opportunities before Ellie. However, my current work environment is not a healthy place for its employees – let alone women – let alone a new mother. I have known this for years, and I have been casual aboutContinue reading “Before Baby: Software design”

The Irvine Fires

As I’m writing this, the fire is 5% contained and burning 12,000 acres of land. No structures have been destroyed, but 100,000 people have been evacuated from their homes. Our home has not been affected because, although we live along the same canyon, we are farther south from the blaze. We have not even beenContinue reading “The Irvine Fires”

Abrupt Halt for Ellie-hood

It has happened. Sara had her Motherhood moment that all mothers go through. Sara realized that she was going to lose her cool, and Ellie would not understand, so she removed Ellie from the situation and asked for my help. That photo above? That’s the aftermath of a bottle and the remaining powdered formula knockedContinue reading “Abrupt Halt for Ellie-hood”

Community in Mommy-hood

How fortunate my family is to have a great community of friends and family who contributed to my mental health in the last weeks when I posted I Have Lied to You. I received phone calls, comments, and texts to share that I was not alone, that these feelings were common for every mom, andContinue reading “Community in Mommy-hood”

Pattern Interrupt Perfection

I have a bad habit when it comes to my anxiety. When I start to feel out of control, I imagine my perfect day – what is the routine, what am I wearing, who am I with, where do I spend this perfect day? I have labeled this “perfect day” exercise a form of GoalContinue reading “Pattern Interrupt Perfection”

Warning! Danger! Baby!

Creating a family around a baby is the most basic function of anyone’s lifetime. Every other animal in Earth’s animal kingdom lives each day with the desire to procreate and propagate the Earth with their species. This doesn’t mean that parenthood is for everyone or that it should be the goal of every human. AfterContinue reading “Warning! Danger! Baby!”

Celebrate Progress

Eleanor slept until 2pm and then 5:30am last night. We almost got a full night of sleep. We’re moving in the right direction as a family toward sleeping through the night. I’m so excited for progress according to what is age-appropriate for Ellie. My level of excitement cannot be understated. By the middle of lastContinue reading “Celebrate Progress”